Changes

Lately I have been changing. The kind of change that is very deep. You know the feeling that you are on the brink of something new and grand? That's how I have been feeling. Yet change Is scary none the less. Especially If you are like me and and are uncomfortable with It. I have come to a point In my life where certain things that happened to me In my past are directly effecting my future. I have the opportunity to face them or live dieing inside for the rest of my life. They are both equally scary to me. The outcome Is the determining factor. I believe that I am adult enough and capable of dealing with this and coming out stronger and changing the course of my life. With Gods help I can do all things. But the prospect Is so terrifying. Reliving, feeling and pressing through things you have locked up In some hidden tomb inside of you for years. The helplessness, anger, sadness, frustration, and so many more hard to handle emotions and somehow diving into that black hole head on and coming out on the other side healed. Seemingly weightless from the years of bondage and carrying these chains around and now they are gone. Here is an excerpt from the book I am reading. 
" Healing Is about opening our hearts, not closing them. It is about softening the places In us that wont let love In. Healing Is a process. It Is about rocking back and forth between the abuse of the past and the fullness of the present and being In the present more and more of the time. It is rocking that creates the healing, not staying In one place or another. The purpose of healing Is not to be forever happy; that Is impossible. The purpose of healing Is to be awake. And to live while you are alive instead of dying while you are alive. Healing Is about being broken and whole at the same time."
I know It Is so amazing right!? Anyway, I am going through her book and It Is helping me so much. This is probably, no definitely one of the hardest things I have ever decided to trek through. But I know that with God I can and will make It. And living everyday knowing that I am doing something about these core issues that are so intertwined in my present and my future If left insurmounted, well those are the days I have accomplished great things and it is a great feeling. I am so thankful for the friends and family that are In my life. My fantastic husband who has my back and Is always holding my hand through whatever. Also our amazing church we are so blessed to have such great and honorable leadership In our lives. I have a wonderful support system and I am so Thankful for each and every one of you! I know that talking about things like this is not an easy thing to do and I really pray that my boldness in speaking about it blesses you and encourages you in whatever you are going through!

My Fantastic 23rd Birthday!

I woke up to breakfast in bed. My choice was pancakes!! While Drew was at work he sat out a note with a beautiful box sitting next to it. A gorgeous diamond necklace waiting inside! One heart inside the other representing him and me. :) When he got home for work, a half day at my request, He held in his hands the biggest bouquet of flowers i have ever seen! Seriously, the vase itself is about 14 inches tall. It is glorious. along with the sweetest card you have ever read. After that we went shopping, and boy did we shop! Clothes ( fashion bug, Victoria's secret) Candles and soaps (Bath and body works)  Shampoo (State beauty supply).  Then we dashed home to change and of f we went to dinner at Shogun. I have gone to dinner there just about every birthday since I was 2. During dinner Drew pulled out another box its contents 1/2 kt diamond earrings! OMG! I just about ruined my make up!Ya it was amazing. and dinner to as always. Afterwards on we went to my parentals to say hello. My parents, aunt Mary, and granny went in together on an awesome vacuum! Lord knows i needed it! next was marble slab to pick up my birthday cake. It is peanut butter ice cream with butter finger mixed in and chocolate cake on bottom. It was heavenly! Home to change and now at kaffe bona blogging it up and Thanking all my friends on face book for their wonderful birthday wishes!  And today is just Friday we have all weekend planned! Thank you family and dear friends for making this the best birthday this girl has EVER had! Lots of love ~ Candice

Weight-loss Scriptures

I have found some scriptures to help affirm and strengthen me on this journey of weight-loss! I hope it inspires you too!

Mark 8:34 Whosoever will come , after me, let him DENY HIMSELF, take up his cross, and follow me.

Proverbs 13:25 The righteous eateth to the satisfying of his soul: but the belly of the wicked shall want.

James 5:16 confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer availeth much.

Bind the spirit of Desire, /Indulgence, or Gluttony, in the name of Jesus Christ. Loose the spirit of Self-Discipline, Will-Power, or temperance in the name of Jesus Christ. Remember, to thank the lord and praise him daily for the overcoming power to resist the devil and thank him for the word being made flesh in your body and soul as you quote these scriptures! The enemy would like to ruin your body because it is the temple of the living God (2 Corinthians 6:16) Therefore, he is the culprit giving you the desires to eat the things which are weakening your body. When you are tired, sick, and unhealthy, you are not fit and available for God's use. So many Christians are heavier than they should be because the enemy is buffeting them in this way. Physical infirmities relating to obesity are not being criticized but can be healed also.
When you take heed to this exhortation, you are causing your spirit to reign in ascendancy over your soul. The desires of the flesh are in the soul area where the enmity of the flesh works to destroy the temple of the living God. The tools which our Lord gave us for this battle are found in binding and loosing, not deliverance. You are not being possessed when you cannot resist the temptation to eat in a gluttonous way, you are giving in to carnal desires. It is a battle in the flesh to overcome in this area; but when you do, the joy of the Lord is truly your strength, for you have resisted the enemy, so he must flee, because you have submitted unto God in obeying His word. May the Lord be with you in a mighty way and give you the overcoming power which you need to carry through!
(excerpt from: Scripture keys for kingdom living)
More scriptures to come! Be encouraged!

Weight-loss

    On Wednesday September 22, 2010 I stepped on the scale and weighed more than I ever have. I know there are several excuses and life circumstances that could fill in the blank for why this has occurred. But I am no longer focusing on what or how I got here. Now is the time to change. Today is the day. I will no longer be a victim of myself, spiritual attack, mental distress, or allowing others to hurt me. I should know who I am, and I realize now that in the devastating events that have happened in the last few years I seriously lost who I was. My sand house came crumbling down. But I am RECLAIMING ME! This is my year. This is my time.
    Since that enlightening Wednesday I have kept a food journal, Staying around 1000 calories a day. I have made exercise a priority, and staying hydrated as well. It has been less than a week and I am down 7 glorious pounds! Thank you Jesus! So much more is yet to come. But even now I am so proud of my self for following through. Even more thankful for God's strength keeping me afloat. Also for my husband's loving arms supporting me through it all. Thank you Lord for all of the wonderful things and people you have surrounded me with. And for rising up in me that I might be so privileged to sing you a glorious serenade!